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Friday, April 28, 2006

Yea. Had physics practical today. Not as bad as i had expected. Mainly because the experiments are from the 5 year series. And darcie went through all the 5 practicals in that book with me today. That's like the only thing i studied for my practical? Wow. =)

And the questions are really identical. Didn't expect it man. When me and darcie saw the questions, both of us were super shocked. Then don't know why i kept grinning like an idiot. Lol.

But sad to say, i did not even attempt the 3 marks question where we are suppose to plan an experiment. Damn. Should have discussed that with darcie and i would have known how to do. Haha.

I love darcie. Lucky she brought that book to study with me during the 3hr plus break when she came to my house. Thanks for teaching me, darcie! Really appreciate that. You rock! I'll bring sweet for you next time ok? Haha. And i don't think i look like my father. :)

Having physics paper 1 and geog paper 2 on next tuesday. Must study hard for physics even though it's just multiple choice. I like physics. :) Then for geog, well, i just try my best la. Still quite ok with the sec 4 topics. Can't really remember much about sec 3 stuff though. And it's all essay questions. Damn. That's what i hate about geog. Haha.

Ok. I've decided to stop thinking about band so much until exams over. I'll try. Then after that i'll go full blast and be crazy over band again! Haha.

6:39 PM

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Life nowadays sucks. Exams. That's like the only thing my life is currently revolving around. How i wish i could turn back the time where my life revolves around band. Yep. Those were the happy times. :)

And tomorrow is english paper 2 and physics practical. Quite okay with the english paper, but not quite with the practical. Never really liked practical. Already screwed up for my chemistry practical. And i'll be screwing up for my physics practical tomorrow. Wow. Great.

Oh man. I really want to go for band practice. It's where i can have fun. I think it's also sort of a place where i can escape from reality. Don't know why but i always seem to spend my happy moments in band. And i'll be able to forget my problems temporary when i'm at a band practice. And after band, everything comes flooding back. Now there's no more band practice, guess i'll have to go back to reality again.

I miss him. I really do. Don't think i'll have the chance to see him much again. But i guess he won't know how much i think of him right? Even if he does, would he care? I guess not. Too bad for me.

I'm such a loser in whatever i do.

6:56 PM

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Kind of sad today actually. Have been thinking a lot about the band. Think my life as a bp band member sort of ends here, doesn't it?

How i wish band comp haven't end. All these months of hard work and fun that i have share with the band members. I just don't want that to end just like that. We've come such a long way in such a short time. Yep. To me, i feel that these few months actually seem quite short. Don't know why. Maybe it's because i enjoyed almost every single minute in the band. And it's really true that time flies when you're having fun.

I'm really going to miss everything in this band. People shouting for us to go starting position, getting scolded for walking instead of running to the position, the crap we say during the welcoming breaks and lunch, the people there, staring at some handsome exmembers, my section, my clarinet, sir. Everything. I just can't possibly write everything down as i think this list would be never ending.

I'm sure bp band can do us proud again in year 2008. At that time, i'll definitely come down and support the band as an exmember. Sharing the joy with them when the result is announced. "Bukit panjang military band- GOLD WITH HONOURS!"

5:55 PM

After all these months of hard work that we have put in, it's all over just like that. And bp band got a gold.

Today, i was super touched by a lot of things. Especially by what kumar told us in the canteen before lunch. After that, saw mr seah and mr yau at the stadium to support us as well. And the school was there cheering all the way. And miss ng with some exmembers going at 6 in the morning just to book space at the national stadium. And of course was damn touched by what sir said. I alomost cried when i heard what he said. Gosh. I'm really touched and thankful for the support we get.

Some people cried after knowing the results. Yep. It's wasted that we did not get into finals. But hey, we got gold. And that's definitely an improvement from 2004. And i think we put up a good show as well. Like what sir said, it's a blessing in disguise. I totally agree with him.

Actually i have a lot of things in mind. However i just don't know how to write it all down. I'm going to miss all the fun times we have. Today will be etched in my memories. Especially when it was announced that we got gold. The feeling is something money can't buy.

Pride of bp hear us shout
Bp band will come in loud
Hooah, that's what we are
Hooah, we're like a star
Ever forceful ever graceful
Go~
Bp band the spirits high
Come together sure to fly
Go(clap) go(clap clap) go(clap) go(clap clap)
BP!!!!

I love sir! He totally rocks. :)
I love all the exmembers.
I love my clarinet.
I love my section.
I LOVE BP BAND!!!

9:42 AM

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Great. I think i just screwed up my chinese orals again. Whatever. Can't do anything about it now anyway.

Anyway, got back the electricity test. And as usual, i failed again. 17.5/40. But all because of a freaking culculation mistake( wrote 9 instead of 0.9), i lost a total of 2 marks. I could have gotten 19.5/40 instead. I know i still fail, but i mean it's still better than 17.5 right?

Yesterday i did something so retarded. He messaged me(but it's wrong number) and i wanted to tell eileen. But being the retarded person i am, i messaged him instead. I couldn't believe how retared i could get. I have given up on myself.

By the way, it's yvonne's birthday today.
Happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to yvonne,
happy birthday to you! :)

2 more days..

8:57 PM

Monday, April 17, 2006

Damn. The chinese orals is just on this thursday and i'm sick. Have been sneezing and coughing for the whole day. Somemore have sore throat. And i think i may be getting a fever as well. It sucks man.

Oh well, i don't care. Beacuse today i saw him! Yeah! Was walking to school and croaking to sheryl when i suddenly saw a guy in civil defence uniform. Then realised it was him. Then i suddenly just shut up. Don't know why sheryl never notice again even though he walked past her. Maybe only i'll bother to look out for him when going to school in hope of seeing him. Haha.

Today it's such a good day. Just that it suck being sick.

6:15 PM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Went to play badminton/basketball with huihui, weihui and yvonne in the morning. Erm, actually only me, huihui and yvonne play. Weihui was simply to sleepy to play. Lol.

After that, went to lot 1 arcade and play. Played basketball. Very shiok but super tiring. Haha. Then played daytona. So fun. First time got 1st. Second time got 2nd. Then later played again. But this time round, huihui's machine got problem. So from starting, her car seems to be at a field and it keeps saying reverse. And although she wasn't stepping on the acceleration pedal, it just kept accelerating. Oh. And she can't even see her car. Kind of creepy. Haha. Wanted to have another round, however, my card had insufficient value. Damn. So embarassing. So watched weihui and huihui compete with some other people. I kept looking and laughing at the little girl who used huihui's machine. So damn funny man. Wasted her money to look at a retarded field. Haha.

Each of us are leaders.
Be leaders. Not followers.

6 more days.

6:47 PM

Sunday, April 09, 2006

So bored now. Have nothing to do at home. Don't mention studying. Have been studying for chem but don't really understand. I'm so damn freaking dead. And i'm having a chem test tomorrow? Mr lim said that he would call the parents if we fail the test. I guess he'll really have a good chat with my father man. Haha.

Band comp is so near. Don't know why but i'm really nervous now. Most people would be worrying that the exams are just round the corner. But me, i'm thinking of band comp. Oh well. Bp band really mean a lot to me. And it really made a huge impact on me. Must get gold. Cannot disappoint sir. I'm really motivated to work hard for this band comp now. :)

I don't want band comp to end. With band comp ending, that means i may not need to go band that much anymore. And i won't be able to crap with my beloved section members anymore. I love my section because there's people like eileen(you high again? haha), sheryl, emily, siying, huihui and yvonne. Actually there's still some more. But i lazy to type out. Haha. Then without band prac, i guess it'll be so weird. I'll suddenly have so much free time and i won't know what to do with it. Haha. And i'll miss playing my clarinet. Cl39 rocks man. Haha. In short, band just rocks. Wow. What a short summary for such a long paragraph. Lol.

And i miss him. What's new right? Haha. I know i just saw him yesterday. But the thought that i can only see him on the next saturday, it's like so long man. And after band comp, will i still get to see him? That's also one of the main reasons why i don't want band comp to end. Why do i like him so much? Even i don't know the reason.

Sometimes, love just don't need a reason.

10:10 PM

I really think we nothing better to do. We sat at the bus stop and talked again. And i think is the three of us talkative. Not just two. Right, weihui? Haha.

Just 13 more days. Wow. Time really pass very fast. Must really jia you now. It's still not too late. I hope..

I love bp band. I guess life just won't be the same without it.

Oh ya. And adeel came back today. He wore this shorts which made his legs look super long. And until yesterday, i've forgotten how tall he is. Haha.

11:00 AM

Friday, April 07, 2006

Fine. Now practically everything i do, people also say i like ahbeng. Only kumar and shimin say don't have. People say i walk like ahbeng, talk like ahbeng, march like ahbeng...blah blah blah. The list can go on forever man. Haha.

That's why now my surname is chao and my name is ahbeng. :)

Yay. And i saw him today. Hope to be able to see him again tomorrow. Lol.

wa si chao ah beng. :)Wah lao..Later kena bashed up or something. Then i think everyone will celebrate because i won't exist anymore. Haha.

9:12 PM

Monday, April 03, 2006

Hmm. People have been telling me that i walk like an ahbeng. Do i really do that? I don't know. I think that i've always been walking like that. And siying even say i marching also walk like ahbeng. Haha. Crazy man.

Today had cme presentation. Well, my group did a skit. Didn't plan anything. So it was more of a impromptu. But it was fun. I get to talk so normally. And as usual, claire said that i was like ahbeng again. Haha.

I like ahbengs. :)

It's not wrong to like someone.

6:43 PM

Sunday, April 02, 2006

After band, walked home with jordan, huihui and weihui. Then jordan left first. So left me, huihui and weihui at the bus stop. Then we just sit there and talk till 10.15. So fun man. We just crap non stop. Haha. And i guess weihui was shocked about what we told her. Lol.

So glad that he came. :)

7:14 PM